This little 12 year old girl unlocked my phone, opened up my Instagram and followed herself AND liked her own pictures at MY expense.
I want to be good to people but they don’t allow me to. I’m always burnt out by friends and family and no one ever takes the time to unravel me and get to know my thoughts. I’m a sensitive heart I know I’m not a bad person. I love myself for my inside but no one will ever love me back, and that makes me sad.
I feel like people enjoy being around me because I make sure they do. I understand people’s personalities really well and what behavior they would respond positively or negatively to, so I model myself after that. I’m still largely myself, but I change according to what kind of people are around…
I am a constant contradiction. It is extremely hard for me to see only the negative, or the positive side. I despise humanity, but I care deeply for them as well. I am fully supportive of liberal ideas, but my virtues themselves are like that of a total conservative. I hate myself for being so contradictory, but I can’t help it. My personality itself is a contradiction. I push people away, I despise (or am afraid of?) physical contact, but I yearn love and affection. It is truly frustrating.
My whole life I have always been the “mother” of the group, the “counselor” if you will. Never passing judgement, and for the longest time it used to baffle me how even the quietest people would completely open up to me with such ease. Despite knowing the ugly side of people, I still genuinely cared- but the moment I showed my own weakness- they run away. Every person. Every time. Am I really that dark? Or more so, am I really not that important despite all I’ve done for them?
i never get over how accurate this is
"They are, in fact, sometimes mistaken for extroverts because they appear so outgoing and are so genuinely interested in people — a product of the Feeling function they most readily show to the world. On the contrary, INFJs are true introverts, who can only be emotionally intimate and fulfilled with a chosen few from among their long-term friends, family, or obvious "soul mates.""
walking away from responsibilities.
Love is… Making a commitment with your soul.